There was a lot of stuff going on today, but my meeting with Sandy was really important. We talked about my observations over the last week. I discovered that I have really been pulling myself down with my inner-thoughts. I tell myself very frequently "I don't want to deal with this" or "I'm not happy." This is causing me to be moody and I get frustrated easily. No wonder I'm not happy.

My assignment this week is to observe ny behaviors again, but this time it is more about how I am towards others. How often do I do the following things:
Say Sorry
Show gratitude
Say I forgive you
Say Thank you
How kind am I
How considerate am I

I already know the answer to this, unfortunately. I'm not very apologetic, especially if it means admitting that I'm wrong. One big distinction we've had to make is between "me at work" and the "me at home" - two completely different people. I feel that I am able to do these things at work, but not at home. I have to work on this.

Today was our Holiday Luncheon for work. We went to Trattoria Pina on Swan and Sunrise. I had the Pasta Primavera. Had I thought about it, I would have added a chicken breast for protein. I was too busy trying to overcome the urge to order the pasta with sausage. I did skip the amaretto cake. The waitress was nice enough to bring me a bowl of fresh strawberries. I don’t think they were as good as the cake though.

Today is the day I have been waiting for. This morning I didn't have clean jeans, so I decided to try a pair of old size 8 pants - and they fit! I remember putting them in my bottom drawer 6 months ago because I couldn't button them, and now they fit. They are still a little tight, but I can finally see some results. Tomorrow Peder will be doing my weight and measurements, so I will post my changes as soon as I can.